history repeats itself
If this image doesn't make you angry and/or frustrated, you have clearly never read X.
Now, let's get one thing straight here: I have no god damn idea how CLAMP intends to finish X, if intend they do ever finish this goddamn series. After 15 years, you can understand why I don't exactly have high hopes. That said, there is a way I don't want it to end, and that's that I don't want Kamui and Fuuma to end up like Subaru and Seishirou.
Is Kamui in love with Fuuma? Honestly, I'm not sure. I think he is. I do think he loved Kotori; I do think he also loves Fuuma. He cared for them so deeply that they were the people he decided to save the world for; they meant more to him than anyone else. Kamui spends most of the series believing his deepest wish is to get Fuuma back, no matter what the cost. Is that love? I don't know. I don't honestly think it matters. What does matter is that Fuuma is the most important person in his life now that Kotori is gone.
And if it ends in tragedy — if Kamui ends up being forced to kill Fuuma because he can't figure out his wish, just like Subaru was forced to kill Seishirou all because Subaru and Seishirou couldn't get their fucking act together and realize what their wishes really were — then what is the goddamn point of the series?
Don't get me wrong, I like tragedy. I mean, this is a site for Subaru and Seishirou. I like tragic stories with good payoffs and I really like how CLAMP wove Subaru and Seishirou's story together through Tokyo Babylon and X. But it's important to remember that Subaru and Seishirou are crossover characters, and that their inclusion in X is for a purpose. If that purpose isn't so Kamui and Fuuma can learn from their mistakes, then I'm not sure what the point was in the first place.
Kotori's last message was that the future has yet to be decided. The series has foreshadowed almost from the beginning that the world is going to end unless something changes. I don't know what CLAMP has in mind for the ending, but like Kotori, I'd like to hold onto hope.
(Seriously though, if rocks fall and everyone dies, I won't even be surprised.)